back into it!

Well, yesterday I braved the thought of cutting off my never-ending food supply. That endless barrage of trips to the cupboard/fridge I have been doing for the past 6 months. I really want to wrap up this weight loss gig before my third bandiversary, which is in 11 months and I still have 17.9kg to go, so I better get cracking. So yesterday I went back to the gym and a body attack class. Well, I seriously almost died! This year, I have been doing the odd walk, dance classes and Zumba and I am sure that these 3 things stopped a massive weight gain, but in terms of fitness? I have lost a whole heap. Actually, I have to come clean here, I have let smoking creep back into my diet too. It started as an anxiety thing, with stress from work, then it became a social thing with my friends/sister, and now it is just part of my day. Well, let me tell you, yesterday when I did body attack after 6 months of smoking was HARDER than when I did Body attack at 110kg! It sucked. I felt fire coming up through my body and into my face and knew that I was starting to look like a beetroot. I HAD to take easy options (which I never did as a fattie!) So, as I let the good food and exercise in, I need to let the gluttony and cigarettes go.


17.9kg to go,


Hugs,
 xoxo

340 days to go

I just resigned 12 months of gym membership! About bloody time I reckon! $12.50 per week for unlimited Les Mills, Spin, Boxing and gym usage - pretty happy with that!

350 days and 18.9kg to go

Hello there! no! I didn't disappear forever. Just had a little working holiday in Canberra. Ate 6 meals a day (OMG!) and expected to put on a kizillion kilos, but no, came home 100g lighter. Yay! And yes! I know u want to see my hefty naked bits - hold your horses you dirty perves (I've lost my camera charger!) but they are on their way!
Over and out at 83.9kg

Hugs xoxo

363 days to go!

I made the fatal weight loss flaw of comparing my journey to someone else's. I realised today, as I walked to my facial appointment, that I actually really enjoy exercise. At some stage though, my green eyed monster reared it's ugly head. My sister has had as much success as me. But, she doesn't count calories. She doesn't work out. I had the horrible thought, possibly 6 months ago, that if she could do it without the effort then why couldn't I? And that's where my mojo went. Recently, while holidaying in Adelaide, my friend, who is studying to be a personal trainer, walked out while I was having a ciggy and a glass of chardonnay, "I bet you love holidays so that you can let go like that. But honey, it just doesn't suit you. It doesn't fit into your new healthy persona". It's funny but I never thought people could ever look at me like that. But, he was right. Exercising and eating healthy and obsessing over carbs, protein, sugar, calories and fat it MY WAY. It is how I LIKE to do things. I am obsessed with reading material on weight loss and am slowly moving into reading about fitness. I have decided to study dietetics/nutrition. It is what I have always wanted to do, but knew that I couldn't do it being the weight I was. Tomorrow I am getting my haircut and when I get home I WILL take THOSE pictures. The ones where I bear all. You've been warned!

364 days to go

O.K, so today has been en epic.............pass as far as eating goes.

Breakfast - 2 scrambled eggs with cottage cheese
Snack - protein shake
Lunch - Smoked chicken and lettuce
Snack - cup of tea
Dinner - Salmon and 1/2 cup salad
Snack - 4 spoons greek yoghurt with blueberries

But, I need to get back to the gym. Yeah - I could walk, but I lack motivation. While I was paying that money to someone else, I felt the need to go and justify the spend. I have taken 10 weeks off the gym now ( I have been dancing and doing zumba) but it is time to get a gym timetable going. And that means earlier bedtimes so that I can get up at 5.30am. That is a goal and a job for tomorrow.

2nd bandiversary!

Yep! 2 years. And by the time it gets to 3, I will be 65kgs! A girl needs to set goals. And, for once in her life, she might just need to achieve them!! Let's go.

Over and out at 84kgs. 19 to go!

Finally....20togo

Body


I finally hit the weight that I wanted to start at for my final 20 kilos to go challenge. Christmas/New Year/holidays added 3-4 kilos to that and it has taken me the whole of January to get it off again. But with my final goal at 65kg, I needed to get back to 85kg to even start. This morning the scales read 84.5. Thank God! I am ready to start. I am officially starting tomorrow because I will use today to do all my measurements and photos. Gah! That means getting into my undies. Be forewarned peoples!

Spirit


My spirit is down lately. I restarted work and was excited about a new year. A new start. A new team. But, on Day one it was obvious that everyone just stepped back into their 2011 places. My "friends" are 4 girls that are all much younger than me (we have a small staff and they are the girls closest to my age). I really like them all and love their personalities. The problem is that they constantly leave me behind and in the dark. We have been back for 3 days and this has already happened twice. The first one was that last year I suggested that we all go on an overseas trip together. That I would ring my educational tour company and organise something. When they got back they had already booked a trip to Vanuatu for Easter without me. One of them said, "Oh! You didn't want to come did you? The flights are already pretty booked out". Charming! The second one was last night. We had welcome back drinks for our workplace at one bar and a whole town welcome back at another bar. At one point, one of my friends said "we are going to start at Bar 1 and head to Bar 2". Cool. But 2 and a half hours after the meeting time, I messaged them and they let me know that they had all decided to go to Bar 2 first instead. Thanks for letting me know.

So my question to you - Am I being paranoid? Or are my "friends" not really "friends"?

Boy! I needed to vent that. See ya tomorrow.